21 November 2009

Fighting depression

I have learned some very hard lessons in my life when it comes to depression. These are my experiences.

Depression is self defeating.
Depression says I don't care how you feel about something, can't you see what it is doing to me.
Depression says I don't like this.
Depression says I can't see tomorrow so it must not exist.

Oh I have had plenty in my life to be depressed about.
I've lived through 3 divorces, open heart surgery, moves, a negative force in my life, loss of friends, loss of family relationships.

I've had my phone disconnected more times that I can count, had my electricity shut off, right now I'm facing eviction for our family of 9.

But I have been blessed....
I have a God who walks through the fire of testing with me.
I have a savior that knows what it feels like to be abandoned.
I have a husband who loves me.
My children are healthy and active.
I've been blessed to give birth in my own home.

I still fight depression. I have learned that the easiest way to let depression control me is sit and do nothing.

When you feel depression coming on... get up and do what needs to be done.

18 November 2009

Thanksgiving is coming....

As this Thanksgiving comes around I'm reminded of all the things I have to be thankful for this year. This year has been a year of trial and worry.

Sept of 08 My husband was laid off from his job that he had only had for 6 months. He has not been able to get another job.

But God has continued to supply all our needs.

Dan has had several people have him do some work for them for the cash we need at the time. People have paid bills, and we have found good deals on other bills.

We have been given a new to us van. That has been a real blessing. It is nice to drive.

Our old van still runs and gets us where we need to go.

Dan and I celebrated 17 years of marriage. I'm so thankful for my husband and his love.

More thankfulness tomorrow.

02 November 2009

My daughter has a blog....

Check out the story she wrote for a Superchick upcoming book. They sent her and email and it will be up on their website...