Ack I have an adult child.....

Ok, so not quite yet. This weekend though we will celebrate my oldests birthday and his graduation from our home school. At the end of the month he will be 18. It is such an odd thought, especially since I am thinking of holding my newborn around the same time.

I am so thankful having watched him grow into the young man I prayed he would be. He is a young man who seeks God and loves serving him. He has served in our church as an Awana leader, sunday school teacher, prayer team, cleaning, fixing and pretty much whatever else he could do or was asked to do. He helps different people from in their homes, last Sunday gave up time with friends to help push someone's van that  had broken down. 

Yes, he has his faults like we all do. But I love to see him striving to become the man God is calling him to be. 

just 4 more weeks

I can't believe that we are at the end of this pregnancy. It has been a roller coaster of emotion. I don't see the roller coaster ending soon. I am looking forward to holding this little one in my arms. Today as I sat waiting in the waiting room for the doctor the baby had the hiccups and was moving like crazy. When I went into the appointment they had a hard time finding the heartbeat. It didn't concern me because I knew how much the little one had just been moving.

My biggest issue is that I really don't like the names that I have picked out. Well I guess I do like them I just can't imagine calling a child by either name though. I guess we will see when the baby comes out.

New food obsession...

So my friend Emmy has introduced me to Kale chips. I have found myself wanting them all day. I have made my 3rd batch of the day already. So how do I make mine?

After washing, I cut the leaves off the steam and into pieces. In the bowl I drizzle them with olive oil seasoning with salt, pepper and parmesan cheese. I then bake it at 350 for about 10 minutes. I like mine a little crispy so I may go a little longer. I am sure I am baking all the healthy out of it, but I love it.

Please pray for a friend...

My friend Jessica and her husband Archies they are about to lose their son Silas after a brave year + fight with cancer. Silas is 4 years old. Silas has 3 older brothers. They say he has just days left.

8.5 weeks to go

I can hardly believe that we are toward the end of this journey to meet this little one growing inside me. I can tell that my 4 year old is getting very attached to the baby. She loves to come over and hug my belly and kiss "the baby." It feels very odd, because I still have not really settled on a name for this little one. I also don't know if the baby is a boy or a girl. Guess we'll know soon enough.

Guess there really isn't much else to say.

Hello to all

I am sorry I have not posted much. A lot has been happening. I have not come out and said it here yet, but I will share it. My husband and I are getting divorced. It is something I never thought I would say. The grounds are biblical, that doesn't make the idea any easier. I am left heartbroken and scared.

I am currently 24 weeks pregnant. The baby is active and growing. I am being followed every 2 weeks currently due to my own lack of weight gain. Other then that my health is good and the baby looks good as well.

Two Books that have really helped me

Aside from the bible there are two books that have really helped me overcome issues that I had.

The first one is called Every Women's Battle by Shannon Ethridge. It is a book about the dangers of fantasies and comparing our husbands to others, to even the dangers of porn. These issues, well aside from the pron, are so much more hidden from the world as they occur in our own minds. We are often the only ones that know that we have this issue. I know for me fantasy started in high school, and this doesn't even have to be s*xual to be wrong and hurt ourselves.

While reading this book was very convicting, it was also very freeing. It allowed me to see that yes, I was choosing sin, but I was not alone. Other women also had the same problem and had over come it.

The other book is called Loving God with all your Mind by Elizabeth George. This book helped me to refocus my mind so as to not fall into depression. While we all have moments of depression, when I was a teen I was very depressed. I didn't know how to change my thinking and like so many I put myself down often. Learning how to focus first on what is real and true, even in a bad situation has helped me to keep from falling into that pit during several very hard times in my life. One of them I am going through right now. I have learned to keep my focus on God and to get myself up and doing what I need to do each day.